Fearless November

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new day,new breath,start with a new beginning of the month, NOVEMBER
i couldn't believe that 2010 has almost come to an end
FML,nothing much i achieved for this whole year
what a complete failure,barely done a thing that satisfy my own needs
yes,i am just a thrash from nowhere
im just a lifeless human being
chose what i need after all,i couldn't aim for what i want
coz what i need is only self-esteem, hell yeah im not confident to face everything
too coward to face the reality,or better to say that im trying to escape from reality

every second that past through me cause a severe pain within myself which is indescribable
only if i manage to take all the obstacle positively
somehow or rather my only mind will only think the other way round
i need a guidance,i need a perseverance and courage in my life
just a little thing i hope from YOU
a guidance to brighten the light,the light my path,my future
and yes,i could only rely on YOU

as the man's saying,'time heals everything'
but not me
im just a vulnerable human being
trying to escape from everything
as people can see it through their eyes
im not as tough as what i am now

sick,really sick,if only i can get rid of all the sick people with their sick attitude
or maybe im just being a naive human
never face the reality of how the real people with fake attitude live with their life
im trying to be nice to them
even though u help them when they are in need,they won't help u back when you are in need
people set their cruel mind against other people,
blaming others before thinking over what is right or wrong
so do others blaming other people
im just sick of how fake being a real human without a sense of morality

so november,i got you
promising myself to lead a better life somehow
and only GOD will answer my prayer