CRUSH..

currently playing in the background: there is no if~fish leong

yeah,CRUSH? i've been thinking and wondering am i in a crush with a guy.well, certainly i do and im quite emoing now for some stupid reason.if only i can step back on reality,figure all the shitty problems like college and stuff and im facing a serious problem now.right now im studying in ##### university,oh i shouldn't call it as college,its a UNIVERSITY anyway,sounds totally a big thing for me,hell yeah

And im digging my own grave as i can see now,yeah with my shitty results in SPM,ive been called out yesterday in lecture room with capacity of 200+ students.sigh!(not only my name was called out >.<)but it really strike me down recalling all that stupid thingy and scared the shit out of me,blurred that all of sudden my name had been called out without saying anything and was badly wanted and urgently! its not A GOOD news huh? >.>

straight to the point for why i had been called out was i got a C in my spm result last time and the requirement to enter a degree in MBBS,BDS and exactly PHARMACY were at least B in all science subjects plus stupid add maths.hell yeah again i grabbed 2 C'S out of all the subjects mentioned! how cool was that huh?im a GENIUS for grabbing C instead of aced for those subjects! sigh

actually the reason we've been called out was for a good news,they want to let us know that maybe if we get good results for entering the degree courses plus if WE RETAKE THE SPM EXAMINATION FOR CERTAIN SUBJECTS,maybe we're accepted for these courses. Whats more this good news actually drew a smile on everyone faces,well except me. I didn't resit the spm results and what should i do now?dilemma,dilemma,dilemma,i dont know when i get to retake the exams again,can anybody give me some info for this?(opps! i didn't tell my family about it yet!)haizzz

recently,there's a guy who has "that" feeling towards me.he even asked me whether he can "pikat" me or not.i don't know whether its for real or he was just joking??well,he's a good guy like what my roomies said to me,just that he's a lil bit "sissy" =.=...so i guess i shouldn't think too much and lets see what happens in future then:just go with the flow ;)

for the last few days,i met most of my ex-classmates on facebook,credit to facebook that we've been lost contact for 2 years since i moved back to alor setar from selangor. couldnt describe how happy i was! XD we did exchanged hand phone number and chat a little while through facebook. at least i know where they study and stuff,who coupling and so on(gossips).the weirdest thingy is that im talking to all malay boys than girls! i never used to talk to them when i was in that school seriously. and we talked alot in facebook,thats me,chatting with somebody without meeting them in real life is kinda cool. i was brave enough to talk to strangers!

there's one malay guy friend who had been called me this few days,still ME kinda shocked like okay,we are just friends and we dont call if there is something urgent or mainly if we are kinda close friend.and actually im not really comfortable with the conversation seriously,sorry to say >.> its been ages im not talking in malay and weird to talk to a guy in the phone(except my dad and bro).i just hope that the situation would not change to something worst for me >.<

p/s:i still cant forget him and miss those times :( (i know this is stupid!)