Hell yeah...Its all F>A>K>E!!

today my life supposed to be like a blast...like every teenage gals did,hanging out with friends,watching movie and buy a great birthday present for my friend who still survive in the camp and going to visit her on the next day...but everything turned upside down...*keep my finger crossed* and wished everything happened smoothly like i hope for..but fark!! today was like the *suckest* day ever...my dear friend,u should really appreciate for what i've done for you today..

lets start with hanging out with friends>>for goddamn sake,that was frigging boring and i have to admit it.As usual,they talked about their so-called BFF who never invite them for their birthday celebration.So far,they can just know whats going on with their BFF through facebook.sigh!PITY THEM... =.=

next,one my friends exactly the same person(the pity one) mentioned about a 'friend' of mine..she said that she's hanging out with her last Tuesday if im not mistaken,gave the belated birthday present to that 'friend' of mine..oh hell! All i did was shut up! Maybe she doesn't know what my 'friend' did to her and still she thinks that they're so close..sigh! (i swear that all i can see so far is damn true about how my 'friend' backstabbing and showing 'the pity one' pic and it became the cruel jokes among my friends)..again,sigh!

okay,watch movie part>>>i've been told by them that they're watching cantanese comedy movie which i don't like to watch at all...but for their sake,i sacrifice my ten dollars as we were going to watch it together.Using your ass to think about it,like i say, watch movie with friends means that u're sitting next to each other and shared every moment of laughter while watching..hell yeah they bought the seats that separated me from them..i was like fark off you asses!!all they think was okay!!nothing wrong with that..and throughout the comedy doesn't bring any laughter to me :(

last part was the birthday present>>>they were the one who said "lets go and buy present for your friend".By the time i've finished choosing a present,all of them were standing outside the shop.what the fark! they were not gonna buy anything for her or even shared money to buy that present??for god sake,i've told them earlier and even asked them whether they wanna shared money for that birthday present..if not willing to do so but please let me know coz i did not bring enough cash to buy that present!!i feel like im a freak for that moment!!all i can do was mad at myself why im asking them for the sake of that presents?come on if we shared,it only cost them RM4 per person and plus if that birthday gal know about it,she will be very happy knowing so many of her friends actually realised bout her birthday and with that only present she will more appreciate our friendship..but it doesn't happen in reality!! all was my stupid and freakin imagination!! grrrrr... :(

Lalalala..

day:17-02-2010
time:1.59a.m

again, my thoughts overwhelmed me...sigh! seems like this is the only space that i can bullshit and throw up everything in my mind now..arghhh.i understand myself better than anyone else..im kinda introvert and hell yeah everyone knows about it..i think more than i speak and i hardly speak to people even we know each other so well.so, i decided to speak from heart,my thoughts in here and thats why i like to keep it as my secret hideaway but there's one person who beg me to let my blog be in public view.whatever the shit is i want to puke everything that made me feel awkwardly weird and be the real me,for who i am so far and im not gonna hide myself from the reality world.

THAT'S ME :)

finding myself some time to express my thoughts and feelings on my bloggie,im having difficulties as im sharing laptops with my siblings :(

so,writing in this moment where no people are using it resulting in super dark circles around my eyes @.@ plus im having insomnia since the spm is over. :(

IM GONNA START UPDATING MY BLOGGIE WHEN I FEEL THAT I WANT TO..